Domestic Violence

In my lifetime I have been through some tough things.. Seen some things even tougher, but this week I read a book called "Color me Butterfly", by: L. Y. Marlow. This is a new author and she is a very brilliant writer. When I first picked up the book after I got home from Borders, where I purchased the book I was like, hmmm maybe I should have picked something else, but as I started to trun the pages a beautiful story of women over generations came to life. Not only was this story appealing to me because it was just another interesting read, but because, my grandmother, mother, any myself have been put in similuar situations. My grandmother being physically abused by her second husband, my mother too was physically abused by my father and my older sisters father. No for myself I cant say that I was physically abused, outside of the ocassionally whipping I recieved from my big brother when I was younger, no man ever lifted a finger to touch me, however I have learned over time that physical abuse is not the only way to domestically abuse some one. Mental, verbal, and emotional abuse, are all of what I have sustained. . . It hurt to hear the man you love call you a bitch, to hear him say how much he hates you, but it has happened to me before. This book has inspired me in more ways than one, because if this family can overcome the abuse then so can I. I am no longer in an abusive relationship such as that, I am in a better place in my life. I would like to challege all of the young girls, and my young readers to read this book and open your eyes. Don't fall weak to this abuse because honey, if he hits you once he will hit you again...
Thank you for your time and patience,
Kaysey <3
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Antwian P. Applewhite

On the day that I met him I was going through something major, the loss of yet another family member to the deadly disease cancer. Something innocent blossomed from a person, a complete stranger just trying to make sure I was okay. Time went forward and we began to build something AMAZING. Not only was Twian my lover he was my bestfriend.. But I, Krineisha, fell weak for the temptation. After meeting his family most importantly Kimberly,and making AMAZING love on countless occasions even last night. But even as out relationship began to grow and mature, we started to argue more and more,I fell weak, someone talking good shit in my ear and by us having a long distance relationship it was easier because more often than not I was lonely. Yes we spent countless hours talking on the phone hours on end on Skype, we still lacked something,trust and to a certain degree communication. Twian was a good man to me, I truely believe he would have done anything to make me happy. I fucking love him I cheated I'm sorry but I truely believe we can work. I want a family and it won't be complete w/o him.. Without his love I don't want to live. Falling into this listless depression I just want him bak simple as that.. I had a better blog but some one called my phone and it got deleted but I will try again later to express these feelings!!
Kaysey
<3

I'm so close to walking away

Lately I've been having a bit of a problem!!! It is soooo annoying when you are in a relationship and you think you guys are happy and you realize he is an insecure man!!! I'm in one of those right now and I mean don't get me wrong when things are good they're amazing and when they are bad I jus want to stay in my room and cry! I understand that in a really good and honest relationship there has to be some kind of sacrifice but when you know your spouse juggles school, work, home, and you why would you add to his or her stress! You are pushing your possible soulmate away making them not want to deal with you!!! I LOVE YOU and only YOU I'm not going anywhere I don't want to go into unfamiliar territory because I feel safe while I'm with you!! You cannot honestly expect him or her to give up all social life for you and say that if they really loved you they would do it because if u really love them you wouldn't ask for all that! A little possessiveness is sexyy but when it gets to that crazy shit its a complete turn off!! I guess everyone don't see things my way but this relationship is about to be a wrap if we can't get it together as a couple! I'm sad and crying more days than I'm glowing and happy FUCK kinda shit is that!! I jus hope he can get this shit together ASAP cuz I can't do this any longer I am trying to get somewhere in life and where I'm going I'm going to have to have friends becaus you are not always going to be there (no matter what u say nobody is always there). I've already turned my back and if you keep acting out I will take that first step and I won't stop walking away from you until some one else draws me into their arms and heart!!

-kaysey Love <3

The Point ov it all is...

UMMMMM, so I go to the facebook pageof mi ex boyfriend nd I notice that he has a new girlfriend tht part dnt make me mad but wht makes me mad is the fact that our cd was Anthony Hamilton's CD The Point of It All and we listened to that CD together all the freakin time and he got that shit in his status and he has it dedicated to the new bitch! And it jus happen to be mi favorite song on the whole fukkin CD, DAMN way to piss me off! But n e wayz, long time no BLOG, I've been goin thru things in mi life since mi last Blog. I have been talkin to mi ex Sam and like all of those feelingz that I used to have are startin to come back! I LOVE that boy with mi whole HEART nd im tryna stop talkin to him but its not workin for me rite now. I need a boyfriend like ASAP I need somebody that is here that is gonna make me happy nd hold me down so I hope I can find that soon!!!

Its been a while

I think mi bestie is the only one that actually pays attn to my blog so I can put it all out there, in the past month I have:

Dated a girl (No Sex Involved, we jus went out a couple of times)

Got so drunk I dont remember the previous nite (2 times)

Re-ignited an old flame (I dont really think it will work, but we will see)

Applied for college (then regretted it because I still wanna go to the Navy I am jus to damn Lazy to do the work)

I have been suspended from mi job @ Steak n Shake

I have totally crushed on 2 guys that I work with

I have gotten a new tattoo

Sent my baby sister off to high skool and my grown ass lil sister Nika off to college!!!

Wow I didnt realize how much shit that I have done in the past couple of weeks,

hmmm Im on a ball, the dating a chick thing was wayyyyyy left field for me but it was fun and I enjoyed everymoment of it will I ever do it again, HELL NO

Oh yeah I also singlehandedly ruined my sisters marriage well not really her husband took a really big part in that by talkin that crazy shit and puttin his lil sister in the middle of it,

But we have moved into out new house an im very Happy lets jus hope it stays that way!

Mr. C

Soooo mi love for him is soooo real, that I feel it from the depths of mi soul, being with n e one else has never felt more rite than thing were when I was wit u, but u messed up u got sloppy nd disrespectful, nd u let ne say nevermind, and as I read that last txt I received from u I was LIVID, becuz I thought our love would never die.... but its done now... this is dedicated to u, ill always love u nd there will never be n e one as special as u n mi heart...

Now im sittin her wit mi eyes dried, im thinkin that I gave u mi <3, but one question, how could ur excuse to break up wit me be the distance of ur skool and then like shortly after, u wit another chikk that's still in h.s. That lives, closer to me.... oh no wait u to young to be tied down but, ur still in a relationship... okay I think im done now...

Nope I'm not done, I thought I was the wife, the love ov ur life.... The woman that u wanted kids with DAMN i gotta mouth full but Idk what else to say

Its Official

So for mi readers I will elaorate on mi fbook status!

So everybody wh knows me knws i Love mi ex...but he's an asshole, we officially called it quits today over some shit that he saw on fbook to get his fukkin attn that i can walk away and b with n e body else in a heartbeat... but he didnt see it as that he saw it as we werent together n e more which we pretty much werent but this shit here took it to a new height.. nd his heart wasnt in it like mine was n e wayzz so whateva... But from this day forward, I will not have sex wit n e body else til i see a ring on mi finger!